How true!

“We wait all these years to find someone who understands us, I thought, someone who accepts us as we are, someone with a wizard's power to melt stone to sunlight, who can bring us happiness in spite of trials, who can face our dragons in the night, who can transform us into the soul we choose to be. Just yesterday I found that magical Someone is the face we see in the mirror: It's us and our homemade masks.”
- Richard Bach

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Duhh...

I think I'm going bonkers.

The 2nd doc has been on my mind since Monday. Ya, I'm CONSTANTLY thinking of him.

What's up with me? Duhh...

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Arrhh.. that's where...

they have been hiding all these while - in the hospital.

Today, I went to the hospital for some stew-pid reason and met 2 really cute doctors.

How I wish they are both mine! Hahaa...

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messy messy messy

After a good 11 years of stubborn-ness and stew-pid insistence for who knows what, finally, I moved into the study room.

There are a few reasons on why the move. Guess, I shall not say much about those reasons since there is just no point anymore.

Anyway, the new room is so messy now. It's not that I don't want it to be neat, I WANT! It's just that I have yet to think of ways to hide them all. Urghh... The new place is definitely smaller and I didn't have a good sleep last night. Maybe it's the unfamiliarity, I kept waking up every now and then. Maybe I'm being sensitive, but I do feel kinda suffocated in here.

There are alot of feelings trapped inside me. I feel pissed, sad and helpless. Guess, they are just some kind of passing feelings and I will get over them soon enough. As I have been thinking for the longest time ever, the situtation I'm now in is really ironic.

In short: I want to leave but I can't.

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how?

no matter how hard i try, i still fail.

why is it so hard to suppress the dislike i have for him? i cannot stand him. i wish he will just leave me alone. he's such an eyesore.

i struggle to be nice. i pretend to be nice. why do i have to be so pretendious? it's just not me!

these 2 weeks will be blissful without him.

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