i hate

myself when i talk too much!

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stressed out...

the audit issue had given me a level of stress that is so mountainous high.

i felt the urgency.
i felt the need to be right.
i felt the brain being stuck.
i felt the frustration.
i felt the anger building up.

simply put, i can't think at all.

i had repeated these to myself umpteen times:
no no no, this shouldn't be like this.
there has got to be a better way.
what am i doing?
ok, i need to relax to get this straighten out

and all along, i thought i can handle stress well. just as long i calm myself down. but this time round, i can't suppress the anxiousness inside no matter how hard i try.

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