Sunday, April 25, 2010

Sunday, March 21, 2010

I have made the decision.

i ended the relationship that i have been wanting to for a long time.

and i quickly jump into another one before i can settle the previous.

but i'm happy. really happy.

i'm falling so hard for him.

i can't imagine my life ahead without him.

but the decision i made has deeply affected him badly... and me as well.

i fear the unknown.

what is going to happen - i don't know.

and that really is worrying.

i wonder, when i look back at the end of this year, how would my life be?

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Tuesday, February 9, 2010

It has been ages since....

yes! last posted something. to be exact, almost one year.

sigh...

today i have a almost heart-stopping surprise.

i received a huge bouquet of roses. 99 of them to be exact. 96 in pink. 3 in red.

i have never gotten such a huge bouquet before in my life. my first. and my last as well.

definitely.

i really don't deserve his attention. and the extravagant splurge on the beautiful roses.

he fills me with so much guilt and there is no way that i can repay him.

what should i do?

is there really a choice for me?

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Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Expected

it was all concluded.
just as expected.
nothing came out of it.
but.
the sweetness linger.
sigh...


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Monday, December 22, 2008

Unexpected

it was a surprise.
i didn't expect it.
i ponder endlessly on why is it happening.
or where it will lead me.
it's going nowhere.
definitely.
sigh...

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

Random Thoughts 4

Year end seems so near and yet so far. 2 more months. Just 2 more months only. Wonder what have I done for the last 9 months or so? Can't seem to remember much. Or maybe there really ain't much to remember? Sigh...

Had many dreams lately. Dunno why. I usually have dreamless sleeps. Wonder what's the buzz in the darkest corner of the little brain that I have? Must be up to no good. Ha!

Work. Nitty gritty. Drag. Emptiness. No focus. Lost.

Life. Kinda bored.

Gonna run later.
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Thursday, September 18, 2008

i hate

myself when i talk too much!

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